I think all of this--especially in light of your author's note--makes sense, and that's the most important thing about writing in general and fanfic in particular. Does it make sense? Does it fit? Does it have its own consistent internal logic? Whether someone agrees with your interpretation is "different strokes for different folks" but I think even people who don't agree can at least say "Yeah, that makes perfect sense and fits into the SPN universe."
And your author's note really makes me think of two other "inseparable pairs" that in their own way remind me of Sam and Dean--Kirk and Spock, and Starsky and Hutch. Particularly in the way that both pairs are co-dependent and incomplete without each other. Kirk without Spock is half a man. Every time Starsky or Hutch are in life-threatening danger you see the desperation in the eyes of the one trying to save the other.
But for me the difference is that as linked as they are, all four of those characters do have their own "selves" and one of the things that hurts me so much with SPN is to have formed such strong feelings for Dean, who really feels like there is no "him" without Sam and that he is nothing without his brother. It's one of the reasons for my entire AU, to fix the things that just hang out there unresolved, but facing the challenge of seeing if it's possible to have a Dean who doesn't hate himself. (Personally I think it is.)
I wish the writers would stop treading the same waters and see about going in a different direction. I like dark and angst, but after a while it gets old. I'm beginning to wonder if Sam and Dean are just destined for tragedy and pain and absolutely nothing else, and it almost makes me mad that they created these wonderful boys that I am damn near in love with only to use them to tear out my heart.
I mean, I'll still watch because I'm one of those people who HAS to see how things end, but I'll have to have tissues along the way.
Edit: Because of course I forgot to put in the most important thing--I loved this fic and it might not be something I'd ever have thought of, it feels real in its own sense because it fits and makes sense in a way that we can understand. I guess I just have to cling to the idea of Sam AND Dean because there's a lonely girl who would be pissed at me if I didn't. ;)
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And your author's note really makes me think of two other "inseparable pairs" that in their own way remind me of Sam and Dean--Kirk and Spock, and Starsky and Hutch. Particularly in the way that both pairs are co-dependent and incomplete without each other. Kirk without Spock is half a man. Every time Starsky or Hutch are in life-threatening danger you see the desperation in the eyes of the one trying to save the other.
But for me the difference is that as linked as they are, all four of those characters do have their own "selves" and one of the things that hurts me so much with SPN is to have formed such strong feelings for Dean, who really feels like there is no "him" without Sam and that he is nothing without his brother. It's one of the reasons for my entire AU, to fix the things that just hang out there unresolved, but facing the challenge of seeing if it's possible to have a Dean who doesn't hate himself. (Personally I think it is.)
I wish the writers would stop treading the same waters and see about going in a different direction. I like dark and angst, but after a while it gets old. I'm beginning to wonder if Sam and Dean are just destined for tragedy and pain and absolutely nothing else, and it almost makes me mad that they created these wonderful boys that I am damn near in love with only to use them to tear out my heart.
I mean, I'll still watch because I'm one of those people who HAS to see how things end, but I'll have to have tissues along the way.
Edit: Because of course I forgot to put in the most important thing--I loved this fic and it might not be something I'd ever have thought of, it feels real in its own sense because it fits and makes sense in a way that we can understand. I guess I just have to cling to the idea of Sam AND Dean because there's a lonely girl who would be pissed at me if I didn't. ;)