This hurts SO GOOD. DAMN you're good at hurting us with poor, dear, beleaguered John. And we LIKE it. Thank you, ma'am, may I have another? ;-)
However much Sam and Dean's lives suck, John's sucked worse. He lost his wife, had every reason to believe that his son was literally going to turn into the devil, and then didn't just DIE, but went to Hell. Forever. Had to leave his sons that he still wanted and needed to protect behind, too, and his life's work undone. Oh, John. :-( :-(
And it socked me right in the gut when John COCKED HIS GUN at Sam!!! And THEN-- Sam was scared, but not surprised! He still wanted to get in bed with the father who just almost shot him! Because of course, he would. It's still his father. It's the comfort he knows. And I was absurdly glad to see him receive this comfort, even if, when he's done telling about his dream, that comfort will surely dissolve... though I'm guessing John will do his best to cover his horror...
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However much Sam and Dean's lives suck, John's sucked worse. He lost his wife, had every reason to believe that his son was literally going to turn into the devil, and then didn't just DIE, but went to Hell. Forever. Had to leave his sons that he still wanted and needed to protect behind, too, and his life's work undone. Oh, John. :-( :-(
And it socked me right in the gut when John COCKED HIS GUN at Sam!!! And THEN-- Sam was scared, but not surprised! He still wanted to get in bed with the father who just almost shot him! Because of course, he would. It's still his father. It's the comfort he knows. And I was absurdly glad to see him receive this comfort, even if, when he's done telling about his dream, that comfort will surely dissolve... though I'm guessing John will do his best to cover his horror...
Beautiful, beautiful angst, thank you! <3