I love John fics like this, where his desperation and love comes through. I love that line about Sam's dream and Missouri's prediction and how that must have scared the bejeezus out of John. I know the comics and John's journal aren't canon but they line up similarly to your fic (although I completely disagree that John being a lousy father for revenge is any more palatable than John being a lousy father in a parody of protection).
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Date: 2014-02-16 03:17 pm (UTC)