brightly_lit

I'm not sure that Sam is desperately trying to get away from Dean. I think he has always needed Dean. My take on it is Sam keeps desperately running from the life of hunting and Dean is inextricably tied to it and I also think he really wants for Dean to have more to his life than hunting and Sam. I think that's why he pushed so hard for Dean to be with Lisa. It must be an incredible burden, in a way, to be the sole focus of such an obsessional love - it would no doubt make him feel enormous guilt for wanting a life outside of it. It's been clear throughout the seasons - but never moreso than season 8 - how upset it makes Sam that Dean doesn't feel worthy of love and how he feels that he's never good enough. I think that would also be a contributing factor into Sam often putting distance between them to perhaps force Dean into seeing life without his laser focus constantly on Sam and to try and prevent him from constantly sacrificing his own needs for Sam's. Their dynamics are such a push-pull all the time and probably always were. I wish with all of my heart that the show writers would bring back the bonds they had in the first two seasons instead of constantly pitting them against one another. I don't think there will be a happy ever after for them when they wrap up the show but I'm hoping that the writers at least let them get some balance.